Tear the fake walls down.

gah, conscience.
it's the holidays and all i've done is make life more screwed ._.
planning to chiong holiday hw, but anyway, that's not impt.
i realised that im so anti-social, yet so enthu sometimes.
hah, what's wrong with me?
my life has no thrills, no spills, no extra oomph.
check it out, NOBODY bothers to come here these days.
so i finally managed to survive a year of sec sch life.
now there's another yr coming up, and i swear im going to to all i can..
to make sure i DON'T screw up again.
pssht. life sucks. admit it.
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okay that was emo enough.
so now on a lighter note.
the holidays dont actually suck as much as i say ._.
but today's alr the 8th leh. one week gone (!!)
mia from 24th to 31st Nov, going to taiwan
i swear,swear,swear that im not going to be anti-social when i go there.
please please please pretty please ._.
haiyaa, been rather mood swing-y of late..
as i said, anti-social in front of some, enthu in front of others.
holy furballs, im so confused @.@
haiyaa, dont worry so much la, me.
bai tuo D:
anyway, happy or sad, worried or mad, life still goes on, like a thread.
how true. so i btr stop worrying and buck up.
:D

gahh. exams over, i'm bored.
tmr no school- deepavali.
im so gonna die of boredom in [input number here] days.
anyway eoys over and i dont really give a damn about sch anymore (!!)
anyway i just realised that sch's gonna be out in like.. uhhhh..
12 days
then there's camp, which is so gonna be.. well,
fun/exciting depending on who i'm grouped with.
but i dunno why i've been so anti-social of late..like, im totally bored out huh.
so meanwhile since i have nothing better to do.. then i go slack lor.
fmab is so addictive and so is reborn! :)
but best is inuyasha new season's out!
so since my fmab and inuyasha is alr keeping up..
i shall keep up my reborn! lorh..kinda outdated alr.
anyway, i have no idea what other stuff to do. but im kinda busted now.
like, my theory exam's in 12 days and i still haven't revised.
school is borin, life is borin, im so happy someone invented something
called the 'internet'.
if not i'ld have died already.
anyway, jiayous to me horh. i'll need it.
tmr gonna do cid. hope can chiong finish hurh.
wondering what clusters i shld choose next yr.
i have no idea. gonna let myself be influenced by peer pressure.

you.stupid.idiot.

hello ladies and gentlemen, pigs and dogs!
after like what, one entire month of mia-ing,
im finally back!! -be honoured-
hahha so anyways eoys over la..
so im bored now..
then i got nothing much to do
except go out with ppl
go online.. and pick my nose with toothpicks (LOL random)
so anyway.. so bored luhh..
then tmr go beach cleaning lor..
i very lazy to go..
but should be quite fun bahhs..
dang..tmr probably getting back results leyy.. (so fast horh)
gosh.. i damn scared my history and langarts..
cos my geog and hcl should be quite ok..
then my maths and science i cant be bothered.
so anyway, been kinda happy these few days..
cos i have nothing much to do
except watch ris low over and over again..
and try to pick out some good points about her..
i mean, i think she very ke lian leh..
all the boomz and horse pee tee telly tee one (EPIC LOL)
because peetee=red indian tent OR mucus
anyway, my theory exams up soon
and i will get my new phones like one month from now..
which is something i have been waiting one year for.. -.-
dang. im damn bored now..
so anyway i'll just (somehow) invent a way to kill time..
for eg going online to find pixie lott pics!! HARHAR.
i'll change blogskin soon!
blogging here cos tumblr kinda sucks also..
now trying to find a new blogskin.. :

*P.S DISCLAIMER: i think both kimbum and justin bieber are fugly because i'm not gay. you people horh, instead of wasting ur time on such alien-looking people, should go research on pixie lott mahh (like me).. JKJK. but seriously, PIXIE LOTT ROCKS!<3

hahas.kinda random post only :] bye!

Hell0000 people..
i finally decided to post hurhurh.
(my talk bout pao qi-ing this blog 'till post-eoy were phony :x)
so anyway, i've been listening to ALOT of songs recently.
and i kinda am infatuated with Jessie James (NOT TEAM ROCKET LUHH) and Pixie Lott!
i think they're so pretty! like Taylor Swift too! *still feeling sore over the kanye west thing*
"Yo, taylor, i'm really happy for you, im gonna let ya finish, but Beyoncé had one of the
best videos of all time, one of the BEST VIDEOS OF ALL TIME!" *shrugs shoulders*
wlao. damn kb can.
so anyway if u're curious for nice music and im lazy to update my wretched playlist:
1.All the right moves by OneRepublic
2.Heaven can wait by WEthekings
3.Gravity by Pixie Lott
4.I look so good without you by Jessie James
5.Midnight Romeo by Push Play
6.Fireflies by Owl City
7.Save You by Kelly Clarkson

actually still have TONS TONS TONS more songs that are nice larhh..
oh anyways, i'm like, slacking like SIAO now..
im very scared that my eoy will be like SIAO oso..
i just realised, its 10 days to eoy....
3 to french oral, 8 to written...
gosh, am i dead or what.
so now im officially gonna disappear from this place until the end of eoys..
and you'll never see me ever again..
mwahaha. have fun eoy-ing! :D

lawls. went jp today.
saw lotsa rv ppl todae =="
got on 180..
den saw lim yan chen..
ok fine, i dunno him lar,
but, hez like, kinda famous?
okk..
den later went jp din tai fung to eat..
den guess who i saw inside?
like, ms ek, mr chua and mdm wan leyy!
principal, vice-p, and hod o' hcl o.0
then later walked round jp..
saw a grp of rvds ppl..
den oso saw yu jie (de sc guy)
den later went to bpp nlb..
den i saw pae hanee o.0
LOL right.
so many ppl derh..
but i all dunno them!
harhar. im anti-social, remember?
so went nlb rights,
then tried to find coraline..
but it was on loan!!
nnden anth copy MISSING. >:O
so i settled for
H.I.V.E by Mark Walden and
Snakehead by Anthony Horowitz (havent read yet)
and i managed to find
Shopaholic Abroad the chinese version!
lols! was lking for the english one
then found the chinese one instead o.0
aiyarh, yi yang derh lar.
sheesh, tomorrow have cca :O
gonna be another busy day..
todae was quite ok.. and kinda cool too ^^
anw, sadly, this shld be my long post
in quite a long while T_T
cuz i needa mug ferr EOY lor..
cuz my parents promise me,
buy me a gadget if i do well for EOY :D
actually that was their promise for PSLE =="
den i did well but nvr reward derh..
now must put 'em at gunpoint to promise LOL.
so well, cya guys in 1.5 mths time!
btw, im in love with leona lewis' HAPPY(:
a very very nice song^&^
tada~ till then!
/Raphael:D

woohoo. officially addicted to fruits :D
harharz. thatz not random okayys.. fruits rock!
harhar.
so todae went to julia's house for CID again.
i totally luv our cid grp.
i tink its de best grp among current projects :D
cuz we just have so much fun tgthr and laugh until like dunno wad .
heehee.
so i went out at 10 todae, cuz we're meeting up at 10:30..
den i caught 970, as usual i was early.. reached at 10:15..
den waited for xinru, zijin and julia..
den later at about 10:25, xinru called me
tell me her slipper broke halfway so she had to go bpp to buy another one
den i was like, 'you must be kidding. u serious?'
anw it was true lar.. her slipper thingy totally came out lol.
den ended up waiting for julia..
came only at 10:40 =="
den we both took random pics
like, of scenery..
den i took fingershots as usual harhar.
sorta like de sony ericsson ad last time.. de finger as de human lols.
den xinru n zijin came only at 11:10.
which means we wasted like, 40 min harhar..
nvms larr..
den went back to de games room as usual.
didnt see "pissy woman" harhar.
then first half part of the day was mostly slacking (not the pokemon)
den julia was talking to us but we were kinda bored..
den she was blabbering something bout de cloth, den she said, RESPONSE!
den xinru and zijin were staring into thin air..
den i went, We had no rights, we had no say, and we long to be free one day.
LOL. LOL. LOL. we laughed lots at dat.
then later julia n xinru started on sewing
den i did de music part..
zijin plaeing wif xinru's fone harharz.
den later we had communal lunch again (LOL)
andden we wa wa wa, mai mai mai-ed for 1hr15min jus lmao-ing lol.
harhar, insider joke!
den we wasted time makin jokes starting wif YOU.
lol, another insider joke!
anw, we wasted alot of time laughing jui dui le lar..
damn funn can.
and we did moderate amt of stuff todae,
cuz like 78% of de time spent luffin' harhar
alot of insider jokes todae lol!
den later xinru n zijin had to leave..
den julia painted de paper balls (aka spit balls),
den i was supposedly doin our ppt..
but i was actually being random..
gossiping and suan-ing eccentric peeps.. :x
harhar! den julia n i laughed like dunno wad..
cuz we had a secret recipe (restaurant) bag ma.
den i told her, i dun wanna bring dat bag home..
den she said,
what? secret centipide? lol. cuz jus now on our way to de games rm
we saw a tiny centipide crawling on de floor.
lol right! she damn random luhhs. totally eldds material lol
so yeah, later we packed up
den we were debating bout hu bring home wad..
den i keep telling julia, you take!!
den she kept saying, har? wad yew teck? yew teck mei yew kong
(yew teck mei you kong)
LOL LAR.
i tink i laughed until my stomach hurt.
den there was one period of time when zijin was hiccuping.
her face was flushed red.
very damn funneh.
anw we left at 6 lor.
first to enter de place, and last to leave! LOLs.
prob. needa go back again nxt wk..
but most prob. will slack again harhar.
den walked to bus stop, julia walked to her apartment.
den i won de debate so she carried 3/4 of de bags, i carried one only harhar
felt kinda bad lar, cuz she was dragging the bags on the carpark road.
den i said, "u look like gandhi dragging bags of peace on the ground"
"so bony oso lol."
but she was too engrossed in her bags i tink she only heard de gandhi part.
lol! den i had to jaywalk again.
took 176 n alighted at bp.
den went home lor.

yeahh. GPA's out!
improved by 1 mark only ~.~
tell u lar, CA3 was kinda easy..
yeah, so i got 3.9..
which i WAS kinda pleased with ..
until i realised..
my A2 spoiler was science (as usual)
and.. i got..
74..
74..
74!!
one more mark to 4.0 nehhs
you say lar, (you si la).. i angry onot!
wth lar! cnt gimme another mark wan mehh
so giam siap ~.~
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
damnit.
lots o' projecx comin up..
lots o' exams comin up...
arghs..
not sure whether i'll pull thru to 21 nov onot
goin to taiwan :D
but i veh scared kaoji exams clash on that few days D;
cuz i'll b back on 28 nov..
and kaoji is frm 24nov-4dec
shit.
and theory exam in october!
EOY oso in october!
french is end of sept. leyy..
needa keep up the good work!!
controle 3 got 90% which is like, hen hao..
so examen finalement oso must jyjy!
anyways, i noe everybody havin exams now larr..
so just wanna jia everybody's you!!
just remember to keep ur composure and dun panic
like my MYE panic like damn epic liddat..
then end up results like shit..
oh, and xueting damn pro la! 4.0 gpa..
its lyke our claz's first D;
i could have been part of it.. D;
that damned 1 MARK. D:<
anyways just remember to fang qing song okayys!

"if you be calm, you will become"

so be calm, and you will attain wad u xpect! ^^
cheerios! ^^
wish me luck oso of course,
and i must wimp down cuz im to wimpy.. tada~~